So.
I am struggling to get things back to normal.
To finish those eco-lovely guide posts.
To grasp the inexplicable. The tragic.
The how could this happen?
The hurt so deep it shakes the earth.
It seems every time I turn around there is another heartache.
Another burden.
Last night, I wanted Spring to end this Winter.
So, I made lemon bars.
I couldn’t find a proper pan so I made them in a pie plate.
I couldn’t find a lemon for zest so I used tangerines.
I took a pretty picture.
A pretty, futile picture (spending much too much time arranging the tangerines)
Then, I sat down with a fork and ate half of the pan before bed.
I slipped beneath the covers and cried for them all.
Without brushing my teeth.
Without putting on pajamas.
With the taste of tangerines on my tongue.
“Anything, anything would be better than this agony of mind.
This creeping pain that gnaws and fumbles and caresses one
and never hurts quite enough.”
–Jean-Paul Sartre
"May the love of
our Lord be with
you. Now and always
may you stay blameless
'till He comes."
First of all, my husband has been begging me to make lemon squares for weeks… I think you just convinced me to do so (and he will thank you!)
There is so much hurt out there. My list of those I pray for every night continues to grow, and it pains my heart. But warmth will be upon us sooner than we think…
Sending good thoughts to you and your loved ones who are suffering.
resourceful mama.
my sister used her sakurabloom sling on her 2 day old little man and she loves it!!!!
thanks for recommending it to us!
i love you.
it will all get better soon.
i’m praying for you.
Those Lemon Tangerine Pie Bars sound amazing, sweet sister.
I hope you keep writing through it all, your stories are therapy to me. We can cry. It’s ok.
Did you know I sent lemon bars to Arianne this week?
Steph